Thank you both of you.
Your advice is so well timed.

Something I wanted to make special note of is the following"

People with a dx of BPD are the (in the words of Linehan) 'colourful' people of this world. We aren't boring and, well, you wouldn't want to be - would you? Emotional intensity can be channeled into passion and can help one succeed at what one wants to do. It can be useful with respect to persuading others to affect change in the name of a good cause (animal welfare or global warming, for example). People with BPD also tend to be emotionally sensitive and can pick up on the moods and emotions of others. When well channeled this can lead to an almost uncanny ability to 'mindread' the emotional state of others.

This is exactly how i feel! I wondered for years why I felt more than others and was able to feel what others were feeling... Im very sensitive to that. I guess there are some positives.