I don't know what to do with my life. I don't want to continually have to relocate for years and years until I get a stable job. Then I'll be stuck there and I'm too nervous to make friends and meet people. I'm just going to end up living alone, going to rehearsal, and them going back home to be lonely. I don't foresee myself ever getting into a relationship at this point. I just hate everyone and the idea of being 100% dependent on someone also really freaks me out. Plus even if by some miracle a guy actually did like me back, I would be way too much of a train wreck for him to stick around for very long. What's the point of being alive when you have no one to share it with becsuse everyone in your life eventually leaves? Other people have their families so they know they can't be alone. My family of friends will not be permanent and I will lose them