It can be very confusing ... with my cbt T i go back and forth too.

I find him really electric in persona and I'm really attracted to him, but often he feels like an encouraging parent. He really feels like a parent when he shows a little sadness for me in how uncomfortable my anxiety is to live with.

I'm just trying to trust he knows what's going on and knows what to do. I'm really trying to keep it in check, I could easily embarrass myself.

Hang in there! maybe it will pass???