Please vent away. You do not have to be "strong" for anyone here, you deserve to be heard and helped as much as anyone else! You have a lot on your plate right now and I can understand why you feel so sad. I wish I could say something more productive but I don't really have any advice . I just hear you, and feel your pain a little bit, and hope for better days to come. Please come here and write as much as you need to.