Soo glad you decided to stay. We would miss you. I know it's hard to carry on but my own experience in this area was that after I decided NOT to commit suicide, I started looking around for something else to take it's place. And I found that there is indeed other things that I can do. I think there is a little magic in deciding to live instead of die. I don't know what it is but I certainly felt it.
Good for you!