I know that I should keep to my bedtime, take my medication earlier... instead I stay up, feel wide awake because the med hasn't kicked in yet, and I feel that I'm edging towards feeling depressed... not to mention it will affect my day tomorrow. My laziness and lack of motivation is really getting on my nerves. I am getting out and doing things, but I have to drag myself out of bed in the morning and can't be bothered to stick to a routine or work on plans for my vacation.... I'm just taking my meds, which keep me stable, but I'm wondering if they're messing with my motivation. Probably.

I think almost every recent post of mine mentions meds. Suffices to say that they're on my mind every day.