I've just started with CBT recently too.

I'm also on holiday, and was given a big old booklet on self-esteem with a bunch of work things that I need to be filling out. And T asked me to do things that are challenging for myself while on holiday.

I've been doing all of it, but I don't know if this is going to work for me or not. I'm already well-aware of my negative thoughts, and I already follow them up with other things - the problem is that I'll believe both thoughts, so it doesn't really change what I think or feel about myself - and I've been doing that for years now, long before going to T. So all the homework just makes me feel frustrated and hopeless because it seems like I'm going backwards.

So far, I have been upset for days after each session (due to summer and conflicts in our schedules I haven't seen him very often) and then get super anxious before going in to see him.