I am in a super funk, very depressed. I saw my grief counselor on Monday, she is a psychologist too. She agreed although I am grieving the loss of my son, who's birthdate is on Saturday, I am also in a chemical/clinical depression.

My problem and question is .... I have been told never to take anti depressants because of the switch into mania, mixed or a rapid cycling type state. Which has happened to me though not always.

I took Lamictal years ago and felt it was helping with depression I had then . Unfortunately I got the dreaded rash. But this happened in part to an error my husband made. He was giving me my meds at the time and accidentally was giving me more Lamictal than I should have been getting. I went to a dermatologist for the rash, she said it was inconclusive as far as being from the Lamictal. But she told my PDOC to stop it anyway.

This was about 8 years ago. My PDOC is unwilling to try it again.

He did give me Effexor, low dose, right after my son died. I refilled the script yesterday but he feels it is not a good idea to take it. I am taking it out of desperatiion.

Currently I take Seroquel max of 200 mg daily, Tegretol ER 200 mg 2 x daily, omega supplement 4000 mg, NAC supplement 2000 mg, Vit D, CoQ10, a good multi vitamin, Ativan, Nuvigil 250 mg. Cytomel to boost thyroid.

I am eating healthfully because I am on a weight loss challenge and force myself to do this brisk walk video everyday.

I am so so depressed, not leaving the house, not talking to anyone, lying in bed too much, not interest in anything, switching between feeling numb to suicidal. I have zero energy and cry a lot.

I was just wondering what other people do or take when they get very depressed that helps.