Thank you all for the support... I really appreciate having an outlet to vent to. We had a talk last night about him taking anger management classes, at first he was defensive, but he did agree that it would be beneficial for him. I'm not ready to leave him, but i do agree that i should do my research and find out more about domestic violence, and safe houses in my area. I don't think he is a monster, but i also know that I can't just sweep it under the rug this time. I know he has struggled alot in his life and I feel like he might suffer slightly from PTSD, but I'm not a therapist and i don't know. The thing is neither of us really have many close people in our lives that we can go to for help and advice other than each other. Which has sometimes made us stronger but in other times makes me feel alone.... hence why I'm online venting to you guys. So I thank you all for listening, it means a lot to me