I don't really know where else to put this. I am just so done. Yesterday I had a breakdown while out with my partner and all my stuff started coming up again: dissociation, panic, the feeling of being trapped, can't get home fast enough. My agoraphobic and OCD symptoms have been worsening again. My depression's been getting worse. My BPD's been acting up for about the last month and a half or so. I feel like everything I do I fail at. And I don't know what to do anymore because I've spent the last four years doing therapy groups, clinics, experimental research, psychiatry and counselling, and recovery groups and self-help support groups and I'm here. No better. There are really no words to describe how I feel right now.