Okay, so first off you don't have to write anything, okay? I am sure I speak for other people as well as myself when I say that nobody expects you to respond or do anything unless it's what YOU need. So please don't worry about that.

I'm sorry you're feeling so sad. Please show your T what you wrote on this thread. I think that would be a really good start. Your T can help you hold on, I know how crazy that sounds but it's true.