I'm sorry that I'm still talking. I'm having a really rough day.

Is it bad that I'm really not trying to fight my SI urges anymore? I'm just focused on trying to survive at this point. I know that self harm is wrong. You guys convinced me of that. I know I need to stop. But is it okay that I'm putting off trying to correct these behaviors for a day where I'm not fighting to just stay alive?

Thank you guys for listening and supporting me even when I continue to make no progress. This would be so much harder to do if I literally had no one to talk to.