Hey!

It went really well. I have even more confidence in her now. She "gets it" and she also said some interesting things about the bipolar diagnosis. She said she encounters few patients who are truly bipolar, and many who get that diagnostic code, especially bipolar II, as a catch all, or because it is too time consuming to really parse symptoms on fine detail, or because it's sort of the in vogue diagnosis of the moment. Which is true, I guess - even the quack admitted to me she put down bipolar II in part because it was a more "reimbursable" diagnostic code - insurance pays for more hospital days for that diagnosis than some others.

She also said what I am experiencing is normal for C-PTSD and I can ride it out and work with it, with or without drugs, and we both decided to avoid drugs for now. She said at times it's ok to let it wash over you and just let it pass, if you cry you cry, just realize it is what it is and you are ok just channeling old emotions. Like the line from a Duran Duran song, All You Need Is Now.

I'm a much happier guy than I was this morning.