Speed I am firm believer that the most effective way to combat depression is through action or behaviour. I know that when you are so severly depressed that it seems impossible to change the actions. But things are not always what they seem especially when you are depressed.

You already proved that with the eating healthy and the walking video right? And the swim? You did those things so it's within you. The more you reach back into living the more the depression will fade. And I know that you have a very special circumstance and that is challenging. Make sure you are giving yourself credit for what you have done because that will fuel more of the same. You have strength and you have shown that.. try to keep building on that and make sure you acknowledge it. Try not to down play it or pass the credit to some other reason because that is robbing yourself of your own strength and power.

I know that you have a lot of anxiety around leaving the home etc but sometimes facing that fear, realizing yes you are ok, just breathe through it and take notice that you are ok. It might be uncomfortable mentally but physically you will be ok. You need to rebuild the proof, our brains are wired to look for proof in our beliefs. If you build proof or evidence that it's ok when you go out each time you do it and actually stop to think about it you will be building evidence to show your mind and beliefs that it actually is ok and they will follow suite, but it is an active process not passive. You have to pay it some mind at the time to make some headway.

I can't give any suggestions for meds as I really never had any success with that area. But just know we are still with you here and very willing to listen and try to help in any way possible. I really believe in you!