So, I had session yesterday and most of it was the emotions surrounding the giant changes in my life. But towards end of session I added that one other thing I need to deal with is "losing you, my T". She replied, "Yes, I'll miss you too, Sky." "And maybe you can return sometime to have some sessions". I teared up and told her I didn't really know if my life situation would allow that. There is so much unknown.

What she did NOT say is, "Don't worry. We can do phone sessions as long as you need. I'm even willing to possibly do Skype session. You will not be abandoned."

I scheduled an extra session for today and I guess I'll have to ask her point blank the QUESTION. It will go like this

"T, I NEED to know if you'll be available for me when I move. I NEED to know if you'll agree to conduct sessions with me by phone at least. I NEED to know if you'll be available."

I can't believe she's left me hanging like this. When I had brought it up last week, she only commented that she wasn't sure that the 'powers that be' would allow it - for confidentiality reasons.

I said that I had no problem with confidentiality but she skirted the issue and did not reassure me. So much was going on that I was not in the frame of mind to insist on an answer. Too scared, I guess.