Well I'm not saying that I did that or anything. I was just wondering if something like that could happen to you. Basically if you could go out and retraumatize yourself again. Or if its like being in an alcohol blackout where you act different. That's what I worry about. Also I have a small child and I'm a single parent so I worry like if I would be so off that I would forget he is there and leave him alone of something. That is what concerns me.