For me having the right diagnosis finally was like this ray of sunshine from heaven. I felt that I could finally get the right meds and the right treatment. I am so much better than I was 2 years ago it is hard to believe that I used to be "that person". Not that I don't have my moments, but not near as often and not near as bad. One thing I will say, you can't cure this issue by pouring alcohol on it (or abusing other substances). You just can't. I have been sober for 2 years and I believe that has played a huge roll in my recovery. An my AA group is a wonderful anchor for me. Praying that you will soon be better.