Please take care of yourself. I know how hard it is to be in your shoes. The only person that can make you happy is you. So instead of trying to change other people you should try to change yourself so that you can live happily!! It will take time, I'm not going to lie to you, it will definately take time! You have to want it though!! You have to really work hard to want to feel better. If you want any hope at all I would like to suggest that you start writing positive statements about yourself. At least three or four a day. You don't have to believe them or anything just write them and say them out loud to yourself like 7-10 times a day! It's not going to be easy, but it's a start!! If you need anything you can always pm me ok? I have tons of ideas on how to over come depression and I know it works from my own experiences with it. Hang in there!! *hugs*