I see her in a couple of hours. But i feel myself pulling back. I feel myself getting angry. I feel myself getting detached. I feel myself doing all it takes to protect myself. The words i'm saying to myself are - "I don't care. I don't need her. I'm an adult and I can do just fine. I have other people in my life who are there for me. Sure, she's helped me a lot but it's over now. She obviously doesn't care so I don't either."

I'm feeling like I'll go into session today and just be matter of fact about my issues and not even bring up hers and my relationship. Of course, I'd love it if she'd take initiative and tell me she'll be there for me. But if she won't (and I suspect she won't) I do not want to come begging and crying. I have too much pride for that. I'm not going to do it.