Another thread and a conversation I had with t this week got me staring this thread. T said I have higher than the average empathy. I always think how others would feel before I say and do something.
T said this is why I suffer so many aches and pains because I store other people's pain too. She said most people never think about how something will affect anyone else. I wonder is this why I have depression and anxiety and endless aches. I would like to stop having so much but I am not sure how.
I always let others comments and moods bother me and affect my own moods and I wish I didn't but I can't stop. T told me that I just need to learn to block people out and to learn that what others say is their problem not mine. I am trying this new approach but people don't like the new me, the me that stands up for myself. The me that won't let anyone control her, the me that won't tolerate bullying or controlling behaviour.
T said that there is a transition period once our behaviour changes, a period of adjustment and people generally don't like a new attitude if they have been abusing you: which a lot of people do and t said I gave them permission to abuse me but now I have to take back that power again. I don't know what I am hoping for by writing this but it is helping to clear my head .