If I move back in my house I'm never going to leave it. And anyway my mom's already paid for the dorm and I'm here. I doubt anyone's ever cancelled before after just a few days. I feel like the education doesn't matter. Not for someone who doesn't feel sociable enough to work anyway. Nothing matters anymore. Only reason I came here is cause I thought I'd blend in and maybe make friends but I'm too shy to leave my room. I'm stupid. Can't believe I thought I could do it. Thought if I made friends my life would have meaning since I've never had friends. But I can't do it. I'm a failure and I hate this life, this disorder.