Anniversaries are so tough. I just went through two. A friend suggested that I do something that continued the relationship, because even in his absence it was continuing in my mind. So I did, and it ended up being helpful and so much better than the dread feelings I had been sparing with for a year.

I don't want to presume that I have the answers for you; just sharing my experience in the hopes that it can help even a teeny bit.

What are your plans for Saturday? Are you thinking you would like to do something to celebrate his life? Or is there something you could do or somewhere you could go where you would feel closer to him?