I always get anxious when I go see my pdoc. I feel like I'm just whining and being melodramatic. But I usually am able finally to tell him how I feel. He's such a nice man but still I feel afraid!!??
It might be better for you to do your own research as to the causes of the kind of disorder you are experiencing. For instance, in nursing school the theory with most eating disorders was that when we feel that we have no control in our lives, one of the few things we CAN control is our food. I feel that this is a valid explanation for me. I don't have an eating disorder but I do obsess about my weight. I can make so few choices in my life. For me also, I'm sure, that it is societal pressure to be thin. But the control issue seems truest.
I feel for you.