Yeah I'd been through the system once and was told the IAP team would be more ''long term'' I had four sessions under IAP how four sessions is long term I'm not really sure >.< being under IAP part of AMHT was worse than being under the first team of AMHT as with the first part of AMHT you got 6 one hour sessions, under IAP I was given 4 half hour sessions and was told if I wanted more I would have to see my DR again and get re-referred and go through the system again - Which I did - To then be told that I am to pretty to feel the way I do and that they cannot help me. I was even honest about the self harming.

I did not even know there was such a thing as legal protection. Yeah I am really considering seeing my DR and talking my Dr about all of this my Dr has known me since I was about 2 years old so he gets me and understands me and my needs he even understands the 'no eye contact' due to having asperges syndrome and freaking out about eye contact etc another thing counsellors under AMHT did not understand and tried to force me to make eye contact. The whole AMHT system has failed me.

I think when I do go back to my Dr - I will ask to put under another counselling team and not AMHT as I feel so failed and let down by them. I have an on-line counsellor at the moment, the only thing AMHT have offered me since all this is a course of on-line CBT where my clinical helper was supposed to phone me every two weeks, they new my issues with this they new I found the voice on the program patronising yet they insisted I continued with it so I told them I would take a break from it and come back to it when I felt ready they said they would phone me to check on how I'm finding it. I have no phonecalls, just an email saying I had been removed from the programe and my account is on hold, if I wish to go back to it I can but it means I will have to start the course of on-line CBT from the beginning again.

Sometimes I feel as though prisoners get better treatment than people who have m/h issues.