have been feeling lately like shoe will drop, tho wasn't manic before, maybe a little hypomanic. Not sure, but felt pretty normal. Didn't want to seesaw back into depression, fear, and paranoia, a state I've frequently fought off and on for many years, and received many kinds of therapy for, pharmacological and other. However, have to say, this morning I got some neat news about one of my sons, and in last day or two had good news about other two, so I am feeling very happy for them, and of course, delighted myself! Counting blessings at this moment, and thankful!