I don't know if this is the right forum...it could very well be under Study or Relationship....but it's heavily emotional.

I can't focus on my studies..I thought I'd gotten over my ex...and when he sent me a friend request I accepted it, hesitantly and after a lot of talking..but I did.

NOW i just CAN'T FOCUS!!! IT'S ONLY A MONTH TO THE BIG EXAM AND I CAN'T FOCUS MY FUTURE IS F***** UP RIGHT NOW I'VE BEEN LIKE THIS FOR A YEAR OMG I HAVE TO STOP I TRIED EVERY SINGLE M*********** THING THAT PEOPLE DO TO MOVE ON BUT I CAN'T!!! I'VE TRIED SOCIALIZING, SELF-IMPROVEMENTS, HOBBIES, TALKING, AND TALKING AND MORE TALKING

I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. SERIOUSLY CONTEMPLATING SUICIDE. DON'T ASK ME TO SEE A THERAPIST BECAUSE I'LL ONLY GET WORRIED MY STUDY TIME WILL BE TAKEN UP. IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?! I CAN'T F******* DO THIS ANYMORE! I'm at my breaking point, what is WRONG WITH ME WHY CAN'T I MOVE ON IT'S BEEN A F***** YEAR.

i'm sorry for the depressing post I'M JUST...BEYOND ANGER AND HURT RIGHT NOW. I'm tempted to block my ex but I don't want drama anymore. HOW could i have been so WRONG ABOUT MY FEELINGS???? I just don't want to hurt anymore...