Hmmm ...

Well, meditation and yoga can help lower stress levels ... but having more love and light ... that's not as easy as it sounds. Love is a state of mind that can be developed, but not through simple relaxation meditation. It takes strong meditative practice to actually learn to develop love without attachment.

Anyway, your problem isn't "you", that's just a blame game and, as you said, avoiding responsibility. Since you've been diagnosed as BPII and BPD, you have a chemical imbalance impeding you. You have a chemical imbalance ... it's not you.

In answer to your title, herbal remedies can be helpful, but the problem is that they are not monitored as closely as medications. The concentration of active ingredients can vary wildly from batch to batch and brand to brand. Ergo, since they are sold as supplements, the quality control really lacks quality.

Personally, I would consider some good supplements and take your meds as your doctor suggests. You can also learn other methods of controlling your disorder (such as meditation or something) to help. You may eventually not needs meds given time, but it's possible that, like me, you may be on them your whole life.

And that's okay. It doesn't make you a bad person, you're a good person wanting to make themselves better.