Thanks everyone for your kind thoughts and feedback.

My grandma is doing better, however she is very stubborn. She is 92 and she won't do anything for anyone except my dad. It's weird, have been there with her on many occasions and ask her if she needs anything and she say's "your dad will get it" I understand tho, she is old and wants it her way.

I am hanging on by a thread here, have been able to work all week tho, am fine at work once I get there. Once I get home from work it's all dark. I am very deep in depression and only see one way out right now. I have to wait tho cause my dad's b-day is coming up and need to see if possible that can get off the lithium. Ever since I started it everyday is a huge struggle. I don't even know what am on this planet anymore. I hate me more and more everyday.

Thanks again for listening,
jen