Welcome Matty. Glad you found us. The people here are very nice and supportive.

What you've described does sound like depression. Have you spoken with anyone about it? Maybe you can talk to your family doctor and he/she can refer to you a therapist.

You are not alone. Most of the people here have gone (and some still are going) through similar things. The crying, etc. For myself I have depression, and I also hurt myself.

Please keep talking/writing here. That might help. Maybe you will come into chat sometime.

Take care,
SS