I am so sorry that you are having such a terrible time of it. I hope things turn around for you soon. Don't think that things will always be like this because they won't. Try pushing yourself out of your comfort zone, like going for a walk. I know that you might not feel like it but sometimes you just have to push yourself into a different mind fame because you can get comfortable in your misery. That's what my psychologist said to me and I think that she had a point! Just a thought. Best Wishes to you Poppy.