"a hellish shreiking jumble of my own thoughts and voices of my world............" "Forgetting who I am, where I am, or if I am even here..." "sometimes getting lost in thought, that I am imaginary....." purplesecrets....I can soooo relate!! I live in my own world of thoughts too. It is an all encompassing world, takes up much of my energy. I am not sure when the real world of reality and mine will or if they intersect. Writing here is a step. I have started to share with my therapist my own world, letting him in, and he understands. That is my hope for you...that, in therapy, you can feel understood, and this trusting of yourself and your world will spill over into not just therapy but everything. I've come a long way....and I'm doing good..my hope is for you too..