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Originally Posted by Tarra
I don't think there's anything wrong with finding it easier to talk to strangers online than real-life people who know you, I feel exactly the same. If there weren't a lot of people like that then online support forums wouldn't exist!
I think it may well translate. And people here can help you with ways to communicate with your T. I know some people print off their posts to show them. For me it started with writing - well actually before that it started with being honest with myself. My first aim was "I can lie T, but I won't lie to myself anymore." Then "I'll write about stuff, but with as many disclaimers and minimising adjectives as I need". Then "I'll talk to him, but make him close his eyes and face the other way while I do it."
So I think all this time getting your thoughts and feelings laid out in writing is very positive work. |
I hope so. I haven't decided if I'll give her some of the stuff I've wrote here or if I'll write it out again. I know I'm not at a place where I can talk about it out loud at all yet. I feel like at this point, I need to just tell her where I am and where I was all summer. She gave me a journal. I have a lot of thoughts written in there. I don't know if I could have opened up online without first opening up in there. The problem is that I haven't seen her in 99 days and it is a LOT of material to work through and I still have 19 days of writing until I see her left. I have no idea where to start.