My heart goes out to you.....all the animals....and at one time. A tremendous heartbreak. And also the loss of a "husband". The relationship with a human proved to be false and the relationship you had with your lost animals were relationships that were stolen from you. I have a unique relationship with the furry folks that share my life and I'm sure you did too. The grief must be overwhelming. Just know that by coming here, you have come to a safe place and will find lots of support. And a lot of people here share the same attachment that you do to your guys. I'm so very sorry for your pain. But...remember to be good to yourself during this most difficult time.