so last year my granddad passed away on the 17th of august and tomorrow it will be 17th of august so it will be a year he has been gone,i don't have a clue how i am going to get through it i miss him so much i feel like its all my fault because when he was alive i was wishing and kept wishing for him to die because i didn't want to see him suffer the way he was ,but i think the wishes came true i feel so evil