This board needs a break from me. And rightfully so! Nothing is going to change! Ever! I don't get to use the excuse of having a bad day, not now... not after having crisis after crisis.... blowing up the boards, and for what? No, I'm not making that mistake again.

all I would say is that I feel like disappearing. Feel like going down to the lake that we boat on and swimming out there as far as I could until I had no energy left in me to swim anymore! There, I said it. Does it change anything... no. Am I really going to do that.... I want to... believe me I do... but I have kids. So no, chances are I won't.

I am not trying to unload on you... I'm just emotional right now and I mean no harm to you. You are only trying to support me and don't deserve this.

I'm not hijacking the thread..... lets get back to the O.P.