So today was just a weird session for me. T was asking questions I didn't have answers for and I was feeling very ashamed, like super ashamed, scared , anxious, inferior and most of all guilty for wasting both of our time. I couldn't even express this though- I just sat on the couch mumbling and throwing out a few "I don't knows" every once in a while. Anyway, at some point T started clearly mirroring my body language. Like I had been doing a few nervous, fidgety but unique habits and she started doing the exact same things! She was so obvious I nearly yelled at her "what the hell are you doing that for!" But I didn't. So now I just feel confused and sad for wasting a whole session where I just couldn't get any words out, then Ts weird behavior ? What just happened to me.
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