Not doing good. definitely depressed. Delusional??? maybe a little. Paranoid... same.

Feels like I put the final nail in the coffin for me here.

Obsessive??? Yes, definitely.

Still refusing to start new threads... feel like I have been terrorizing the forums for long enough.

Feels like things will never change. Happy, sad, up, down, the crisis keeps on going... Can't find what I need to find. tired of trying.