Funny, how a little understanding can make all of the difference in the world. I guess you can say that I feel understood now... and that has taken away the paranoia and the delusional thinking. Just from one post from someone who cared enough. One post and those things are gone.

lets me feel the full, uninterrupted weight of the depression, but now I can at least focus on what is there. Maybe I will pull through.

thank you Panda... you made a world of difference for me!