I was not expecting to see my name in your post here, haha. I had to go back to other threads to see what I actually had said - I felt I was being pretty harsh today, but also thought that I could be most helpful by giving the PLAINEST black and white explanation/guesses that I could.

I'm glad that it seems to help a bit! I am (sometimes) quite good at seeing the pictures and patterns (especially patterns). It is fairly easy to see (for me) how you've gone from one extreme to the other just from the forum.

You'll definitely pull through! And maybe you'll learn a few ways about how to manage your symptoms! It's always so tricky and complicated and has the annoying habit of CHANGING just as soon as you think things are getting better!

As to myself: I faced the challenge of rock climbing at the gym! I was pretty terrified and felt embarrassed a lot, but I did it!! I didn't go all the way up any of them because I had a combo of finding a tricky spot, along with getting nervous about coming back down (infinitely more scary for me), and the paranoia of "people are watching!" so I chose to come back down and asked my friend. The last time I barely went up anywhere becuase I realized that my fingers were too warn out. It's really frustrating, I've got good strength and endurance with my legs and arms, but my hands are totally weak THEN my friend and I went to a pub - so happy early birthday me! Tomorrow we're going to have a fun day, but today was more stuffed planned out that *I* like and wanted to do.