Having one of those days where I can't do anything because I'm so low. Nothing holding my interest. Fighting the urge to drink; can't imagine it'd do me any favors right now. Feeling stunted, cut off, isolated. Trying to remember the last time I really unloaded any of my anxieties to someone, or even felt like I could, like there was someone I could talk to, a really good friend. Everyone I used to trust with my cares has moved on in a way that it wouldn't really be appropriate anymore (i.e., they're mostly women who are now married and I don't think it's a particularly good idea to get into that kind of messy emotional stuff with married women).

Sucks that I was so up earlier this week and now I'm so down. Couldn't I just have one week where everything is good? Just one, out of the whole damn year? That'd be nice.