As much as I love Bender from Futurama, his quote "Emotions are dumb and should be hated" doesn't quite ring true to me. At first, it was nice to not feel anything when in a depressive episode, but now it drags on.
It hurts. Really, truly hurts to barely feel anything. The emotions no longer have depth; they are like a small scratch that barely penetrates the surface.
Sigh. It's almost nothing. Almost feeling nothing, that is.
But I want to feel. I guess. I'm still not too sure.
"I just want to feel everything." -"Every Single Night" by Fiona Apple