Dude, I have had problems with employment too. It's been difficult for me to hold a long term position because of my emotional problems. Like you, I struggle financially and emotionally. I often feel hopeless. I am fortunate to have a part-time online job that has really saved my butt. I have been able to keep it because my employer has been real understanding about my mental illness and its online so I don't have to deal with interpersonal issues. I'd be really set if I could find another online job to supplement my income and avoid the pressure of having to deal with office politics. Please, please, don't give up--there is a job out there for you--the right one. I don't want to downplay your pain I just want to offer you some hope. I truly believe things will eventually work out for the both of us......D.