Uknown, I grew up in a predominately male household so I have always identified with a masculine role. I was a major tomboy-wore my hair short and you would never catch me in a dress. I played boy's baseball instead of girls softball until the 8th grade. I acted like the people around me and they were all male. Things changed when I started my period and I started to develop sexually. I knew it was normal for me to be attracted to boys--although this was all complicated by childhood sexual abuse. I remained a tomboy but I considered myself to be straight. I was attracted to women but I always put it out of my mind and refused to accept those ideas because I was taught they were "against human nature." There was a point where I embraced the idea of being a girlie girl. I did make up and my hair and dressed more or less like a girl. That was a short lived period and the entire time I did not really want a boyfriend but I did go through the motions. When I hit 22 I could no longer deny my attraction to females or my female gender, but I still held onto the notion of being straight so I labeled myself as bisexual even though I was only dating women. I came to the point where I embraced the role of being a lesbian. I loved the idea of finding out what women's breasts looked like (I still sorta do but I don't think that makes me a lesbian). When I hit my late 20s I swung the other way and dressed like a man. I refused to accept the role of being a woman. Somewhere along the line I met a man and for the first time I enjoyed sex with a man. I slowly started dressing more like a woman and took on a more feminine gender identification. But, when I broke up with that man I returned to dressing like a man and identified my gender as male. Therapy and some understanding women helped me realize that my gender bending was okay and a natural part of my development as a person. Currently I identify myself as a woman but I still wear a lot of masculine clothes. I have come to realize clothes don't identify my gender. LOLS, one thing I like about being a woman is the luxury of carrying a small purse--it's much easier to carry around all my stuff LOLS. I have run the full gamut of gender identity and sexuality labels. It's been a roller coaster ride but I finally feel comfortable integrating my male and female gender identification. I tell you all this to let you know other people go through what you are experiencing--you are not alone--it's a natural process of "figuring" yourself out. Please, don't think there is something wrong with you because there is not anything wrong with you. There is hope that you will resolve your gender sexual identity. Follow your heart regardless of what other peoples' opinions are...you will find peace.....D.