I don't know that I'm depressed or not. I'm thinking there's a big possibility that this is just how my personality is and the people telling me that I'm depressed are wrong. I say this because I'm not really sure how to be any different than how I am now. I don't remember a time when I wasn't like this. I really don't know what kind of person I would be if I were different. Maybe nothing. Either way, it's like I'm in hell right now. This sucks and I can't be like this forever.