Sent at least six angry about life texts to my friend - should I even use that word - which he ignored; an apology text the next day, which he ignored; and a phone call that night which he ignored. It sucks when no one wants to talk to you, when they dread hearing from you. It sucks.

Talked to another guy about him buying me alcohol, since he suggested he would, and he said I could either pay by cash or sexual favor. This is a guy I've hung out with exactly once. Maybe I shouldn't have asked for the alcohol but I want it. At least I have money, I guess.