ive been on my meds for about 12 weeks now.Last week or the week before my suicidal thoughts where all but a past memory.Ive been planning on going back to work later this week.Ive been goint to lunch with freinds and socialising again,i even met a girl who seems keen on me and that cheerd me up no end,ive been so happy the last few days.
Now however,everything is flooding back with avengence it like its saying "How Dare you think you can escape that easily" I feel as bad as i did right before my last suicide attempt,i havent been able to see therapist yet just my doctor and all he can do is give me more time off work and drugs,i need more than that but i dont know what that is,I felt so good just a couple of days ago what is going on