Hello. I hope things ar better for you at this time. First of all, I dont really feel that anyone here hopefully is going to judge you in the wrong manner. I sinceraly feel that RAPE and Sexual assault is a VIOLATION and CRIMINAL. It takes a lot from a woman that has been raped, and sometimes it is very hard to recover from rape without professional help which I strongly feel is always needed after someone has been raped. I am going to lesve you the rape crisis hotline to call if you would like to call and talk to someone in person, and I am also going to leave you the number for a mental health hotlne to call if you ned someone to talk to about hoew you feel 1-800-273-TALK. I would strongly suggest that youtell your therapist what happened since you may be struggling with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Depression after the Rape. There are medicaitons and therapies that can help youwith dealing with the rape more effectively, and you therapist can hopefully help you with going on with your life, to a better degree. There are also support groups as well that you may want to attend to get some needed support from others that understand NAMI and DBSA are just 2 that are probably in your area, and there may be others as well you will have to consult your resources in your area to see what is available. The local newspaper is a good place tostart you generally can find most newspapers on the internet at this time. I hope you at least try to call someone in your safe and soare time and get the courage to tell your therapist I feel that keeping the secret that you were rped is not a good idea, you were a victim, and you need to try to get the best help that you can get for yourself, and UNFORTUNATELY unless you tell the therapist what happened you are not going to get the treatment that you need and deserve to move on with your life. I hope the best for you email anytime. Take care Sincerely soidhonia