I feel for you, really, I do. I have problems with anniversaries too. And furbabies...they're treated like children here. I don't have any response that may make you feel better, but I do want you to know you're not alone. Stress is terrible and so hard on us both physically and mentally. Of course you're exhausted. Please know that I send you positive thoughts and prayers that you may find just a little relief to the burden you're carrying. Please be good to yourself.