if i could give you a real hug i would, so just imagine i am haha. i know EXACTLY how you feel right now, and it is a feeling i wouldnt want to wish on my worst enemy. have you tried to exercise? i know it may be hard to push yourself, but whenever i feel down i just drop and do pushups and the endorphins kick in. if all else, please dont hesitate to PM me if you need somebody to talk to. nobody should go through this alone.