Key is absolutely correct. Unfortunately, due to the nature of the trauma you endured, being afraid of sexual contact is a rather rational response (your exposure to sex was on highly, highly negative terms, and thus you associate consensual sex with the trauma ). A therapist can help you work past the trauma and dissociate sex with abuse.

Nothing is "wrong" with you at all Aziza. You're experiencing a fairly typical (in my observations) response to an awful injustice. I don't think anyone would fault you for that.

Many hugs, and know you are in my prayers.

Hugs,
Harley